i'm trying to learn coding!
i've decided that i want to ditch social media and commit to learning coding. this website will function as a sandbox for me to do that.
my start on the internet was probably about 20 years ago, on my dad's laptop. he was super old school, so even though it was already obsolete at the time, he still had dial-up internet and a web client through america online.
probably one of the first things i did was look for "games for kids" or something of the sort through the aol search engine, landing on neopets almost immediately. i lied about my age (being about 7 years old at the time), created an account, and before i knew it, was entranced by the world wide web.
when i was a kid i was bullied pretty heavily at school, and struggled with bouncing between my parents' houses, never able to maintain friends in person. through the internet, i was able to befriend lots of people, some of which are my friends to this day. even now, while i do have friends in real life, most of my social life is online.
presently, i work a full time desk job and have sunken so far into long term depression that most of my hobbies aren't enjoyable anymore. because of this, i'm taking a break from most of them and instead trying to pick up old skills as well as reinvigorate old ones.
i mentioned neopets before -- that was actually my first venture into coding! specifically, through neopets guilds. i'd scroll through sparkly, animated sailor moon gifs for hours trying to find the perfect ones to put in my sailor moon guilt -- even though i was its only member. those who were involved in that part of neopets probably see the resemblence to the now defunct geocities -- this is what ultimately brings me to neocities!
many of the hobbies i'm hoping to pick up are things that relate to coding, and things i could benefit from chronicling through a website like this. i've always wanted to create a game, and made many earnest attempts to do so over the years, both independently and as part of a team. however, i lacked the self discipline to truly tackle it on my own, and any project i had with others eventually fizzled out, or were cut short due to personal conflict.
now, i'm older, wiser, and trying to live in the moment. i know life is short, so i want to at least be able to say i gave all of this a real shot at least once in this lifetime.
once again, i'm trying to learn coding -- and this is my earnest attempt!
thank you for showing up, even if it was just this once!